Love is blind

Yeah, I was down
Smile had given way to frown
Yet sunshine lit up my face
When hopes and dreams had left me
Gone without a trace

Her beautiful tresses,till her waist
My sight, a lovely maiden graced
Saw her everyday, so calm so still
Gazing up, maybe had dreams to fulfill

Mesmerized was I, by her stance
An angel, even at a distance
No signs, not a word spoken
Yet sparks flew, of feelings unspoken

Unknowingly, I fell for the princess soon
Yet another dwarf aimed for the moon !

Hadn't hoped for what I saw
The angel, who held me in awe
Was a statue after all
How could she ever know
How I cuddled in her glow
What I felt, what I thought?
That my love wasn't a show
With eyes shut and her golden brow
She can't ever know, how tears flow!

I carved out her hazy eyes
Instead put on mine,amidst cries
Maybe someday with my eyes, she'll see
I loved her as love meant it to be
Went blind,the pain I went through
Love's blind,they say, tis true !

A pursuit

Lights are glimmering
Cars and people fill the streets
As if humming the city beats !

Footsteps,several I hear
Should I shudder in fear?
Are they friends?
Someone I cross daily at the road's bends

Emotions,they don't show
Feelings,they never seem to know
Alone, I surely don't seem
Yet each one is lost in their own dream
Indifferent however they seem
Each crave to find that's supreme

A good flourishing life,you say
Even with a pricking conscience, you pray
Yet to others as you preach,
If your heart's pure and mind is free
It will follow like a shadow,say thee

Sometimes, I wonder
The things that we crave
Are they worth the time we ponder?

I don't want to seek it
Rather, feel the warmth
Of a heart that's lit
Don't look at what it means
Live life,don't be mere machines
Pursue not a distance
Search within,justify thy existence

To feel it,its rare
Can't beg or steal it,rather share
Yesterday was just a dream
In tomorrow lies the vision
For that
Live the present with a beaming gleam

Don't bid me goodbye

Don't bid me goodbye
My heart bleeds as you cry
For you, my heart beats
Hesitating,still I can't deny

The streets ain't so lonely
I'm always behind you
Just
Turn,if you can, only

Is love the song unsung?
Like the withered leaf that hangs
Making way for pains and pangs
Old to new,like the paintings hung

Are hearts really so stained?
Beats so frequently,yet unexplained
Beauty's bane for moon
Mystic, and yet out of tune

As the wind blows
Hope my love for you,it shows
As tis breath freshens mine
Sheepishly, eyes blink and shine

Amidst rain,my lips touch thine
So intoxicating, like old wine
Your face, so calm and serene
Never such a beauty, had I seen

With eyes closed, I think
With prayers, my lips sync
Thank you for everything
With your love, you made my life
As perfect as possible for a being !

Love-As I perceive it

Well..each time you meet an old friend after a long gap or made some new friends, after few casual hi s and hello s, the conversation somehow boils down to whether they have a bf/gf? I m sure most of us must have faced this question a umpteen number of times. Once you answer this , the next question inevitably seems do you love someone( even though they really mayn't know what love is :P). Love- What is love? The very word seems to send down a pleasant shrill through everyone’s heart. Some define it as a sense of passion; for some its a sensation; and yet some describe it as a spontaneous expression. Individuals vary, so do their feelings and hence the way they define love to be. Are you in love?Is that person the right one for you?These sort of questions intrigue old and young alike, the rich(spoilt brats) and the poors( nerds and geeks included) as well and these are the sort of things which help in the growth of various networking sites, astrologers(fake ones) and all sorts of damn things which advertise themselves banking on these human emotions...Well. some seem desperately pathetic as well... searching profiles and sending lots of requests knowing that most of them are sure to be rejected.(Don't know how they somehow get the idea/feeling that people might be seeking someone to love through the net /on sites:P) Ya, agreed, all seem to dream of spending some quality time with their loved ones;be with them -physically or atleast in dream(well..I have seen guys spending 12-15 hours on phone, their heads bent,eyes sleep-deprived and yet they don't want the other person( the 'jaan' or 'jaanu') to think he/she is now bored and don't want to talk now..As we grow up, the effect of movies seem quite visible on some.Seeing romantic flicks day after day, they get so hopelessly romantic that sometime life seems just another dream for them. They think of going on long drives, romantic candlelit dinners, walking hand in hand by the beach n seeing the sunset..(I am sure you would get plenty of examples where people fill in their choiciest date dreams on their personal profile:).But as most of you must have already guessed, very few are the lucky ones.
You see, every relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you somehow get attracted(crush), then perhaps fall in love with your partner.You anticipate their calls, perhaps even want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. That time, it feels as if falling in love is so easy, not at all hard, a rather spontaneous experience. You didnt do anything. and maybe that's why its called 'falling in love'. You might often hear the expression "swept off my feet" as if like you weren't doing anything and suddenly sometime happened to you.Is love dat passive or spontaneous? But is the euphoria of love to stay forever? Nah, it fades. It’s a natural cycle of every relationship.With time, phone calls become a bother( don't you understand I'm busy? Why the heck you call so often?), touch is always NOT welcome (it’s a definite no-no; you may even be accused of harassing, so be beware!), and your partner’s idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts (earlier it was like-oh! I love when he’s crazy. It’s so cute! And now-God! I hate his craziness, it’s so annoying at times; I feel embarrassed). The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you tend to realize the dramatic differences between the initial stages of your love and now the duller or angry subsequent stages. At this point, you ponder over whether you are really with the right person or not? Is this really the same person you fell for, you were once crazy about? As you reflect upon the euphoria of love you once had, you begin to desire that experience with someone else and that’s where relationships break down.
A successful relationship is not about finding the perfect person (perfect is just an idealism like the ideal value we get after putting in various simplifying assumption, who themselves don't hold usually), its more about accepting a person with his imperfections intact, and sprouting the seeds of love perfectly.We often see relationships failing and partners blaming each other for their unhappiness.Instead of trying to douse the inside fire, they search outside to compensate their feelings, some sort of emotional unfulfillment.and most of them take the shape of extramaritial affairs-most notable among them being infidelity.Other than that,people try to get into all sorts of absurd things-some get workaholic, some alcoholic all trying to find something to cancel out their sense of losing something.Yet there are others who look at this as some sort of destiny/fate and try to move on, carry on their life(with few modifications). People tend to look out of relationships when the answer is itself in front of them. It’s possible that you may fall in love with someone else; I’m not denying that possibility. And perhaps you would feel better also, but TEMPORARILY. But you’d be in the same situation few years later. So the key is not going about searching your Mr. /miss perfects, rather trying to love the person you can, perfectly.
Sustaining love is not as passionate and spontaneous experience as falling in love, it requires hard work. You have to work day in and day out to maintain the same level of glue in it. And it takes time, effort and energy. Most importantly, it demands wisdom, knowing your compatibilities and being able to support. Mind it-Love isn’t a mystery. Relationships have rules, things that you can do and you can’t –just like the universal laws of gravity and all. If you play your cards right and according to the rules, results are mostly predictable. Love is therefore a ‘decision’-a matter of choice, not just a feeling.
Well, say destiny determines who walks into your life. It’s up to you who you let walk away, who you let stay and who you refuse to let go. Love is something we always try to discover all along. It is actually within us only, others being just the media to find it. Whether you hang on to the feeling of love and live it honestly, it’s up to you.So, I guess its better we stop trying to be desperate in our search for mr and miss perfects, learn to live yourself and people that you know, each day.Btw, I didn't say stop dreaming(world won't be as lovely and colourful if we do that)

Who is the real father of Pakistan- a retrospective analysis

“Few individuals significantly alter the course of history. Fewer still modify the world map. Hardly anyone can be credited with creating a nation. Md. Ali Jinnah did all the three”, wrote Jinnah’s biographer Stanley Wolpert, describing life of history’s one of the greatest statesman.

Although we all seem to credit (or rather say discredit) Jinnah for partitioning India and creating the state of Pakistan out of it, this may not be the truth. On a different and yet novel perspective, Nehru and not Jinnah is the real father of Pakistan. The man who is frequently blamed for breaking India was once known as the brand ambassador of Hindu-Muslim unity. In accepting the Cabinet Mission Plan, it can be argued that Jinnah tried to keep India united (although it favoured his vested interests too). The man, who scoffed at Muslims as a separate nation and mulishly insisted that all were Indians, was the man who, when push came to shove, gave India that one last push towards partition by rejecting the plan. It is true that if Pt. Nehru had accepted the Cabinet Mission Plan, India would have remained united.

Nehru most probably thought of Jinnah and his Muslims as headache and the only solution he thought of was to rather cut off the head. He didn’t like Jinnah, to put it mildly. He wanted him out so that he could rule India unchallenged. When Lord Mountbatten took Gandhi’s proposal to Nehru that Jinnah be made independent India’s first Prime Minister, he couldn’t accept the notion of subordination to Jinnah and remarked,” the old man has lost it all.” In a land where it takes long stretches in prison to cut one’s political teeth, there wasn’t any single arrest warrant against Jinnah. He fought and won all his battles on the intellectual plane. He spoke to the Muslim masses in English, an alien language they didn’t understand, and yet he galvanized them. In a way, Jinnah was incredible.

There are striking coincidences too- Jawaharlal broke the Indian Subcontinent into two. Twenty-four years later, his daughter divided it into three. Nehru was a competent leader who changed the course of history for good or for bad. He had electrifying and yet, double personality. There was the westernized Nehru; Harrow and Cambridge,’ Fabian –Socialist’ and there was the Hindu Nehru that always came to the fore during crunch times, using the argument of secularism to deny Muslims their separate identity, insisting all were Indians only and could be represented by Congress alone. Today, his secularism lies in tatters, proving Jinnah and his two-nation theory right.

Great soldier Mountbatten might have been, but a great leader he certainly wasn’t, just a mediocre dictator whom Nehru played like harp. Though Nehru had a chance, he preferred partition rather than having a superior Jinnah and the Muslim ‘headache’ as constant irritants.

बारिश की एहसास

हलकी सी रौशनी आए
झूमे यह हवाएं
पंशी गुनगुनाये
छाई है देखो कैसी काली यह घटाएं

भीनी-भीनी सी खुशबु लाये
कलिया मुस्कुराये,
बारिश के बूंदों के बीच
देखो कोयलिया मधुर संगीत सुनाएं

आँगन में नाचे मयूरी मगन
कही दूर,बाजे पायलिया छ्न-छ्न
लहरायें यह मृदु पवन
खुशी से झूमें आज मेरा भी मन

इंतज़ार क्यों?

This is one of my earliest hindi writes,most of which are lost now. written way back in 2007.

चन्द लम्हे,कुछ पल
न जाने कैसी मचा गयी हलचल
उसकी हर बातें,हर मुलाकातें
आज क्यों सताए मुझे हरपल !

टिप टिप बूंदे बारिश की
चेहरे पे रौशनी चंदा की
आज इतना क्यों भाये मुझे
शायद असर है मिलने का तुझे

जबसे खोया तेरी खयालो में
हुई चाय ठंडी न जाने कितनी प्यालो में
वोह हर एक धुन तेरी
लगती है मुझे आज भी प्यारी बड़ी

पर शायद
मेरे ख़त का आज तुझे इंतज़ार नहीं
मुझसे मिलनी की तुझमे कोई चाह नहीं
मेरे लव्स तुझे याद नहीं
देखे थे जो सपने साथ
शायद आज वोह हसीन नहीं

मेरा प्यार आज तेरा दिल नहीं बहलाती
मेरे ख्वाब,मेरी याद शायद तुझे नहीं सताती
सोचता हूँ कभी-आखिर इंतज़ार क्यों
जब बिन जवाब राह ही देखना है यू?

Wasted

Yesterday maybe I was wrong
Thinking you were for me,all along
Wasted time with you
When I could have played ping-pong

You didn't treat me nice
When hungry,offered me just plain rice
Thought,would get sweets and ice
And meat,couldn't even ask twice !

I thought,for me you did care
But,when I laid my heart bare
All I get is your angry stare
I swear,your red eyes did scare

I thought,you might change
With me,stop acting strange
Stop shouting that hard
Already deaf,surely gonna make me retard

When you left
You took a piece of me
As if everything mine is just free
Bargaining my heart shamelessly
Like you do when on a shopping spree !

I see you in my dream
Thank God, you can't scream !
You walk to me,I run from you
Even when you threw at me your shoe
We can't glue,I knew.

I'm Trying

You hear me? I'm trying
Just to have a glimpse of you
I'm dying
Every other rule I wanna be defying
That I love you,I'm not denying.

I hear you every night and day
Am I indifferent?nay you say
You are safe in my heart
You make it easy when life hits hard

Every night I rush to my bed
Hoping to see you before its too late
I feel you,I dream of you
Lost in a fairytale-the angel being you

Maybe the clouds seem to spry
Yet stars lit the night sky
Wanna feel the breeze and rain;and I
Will sing for you the perfect lullaby

Maybe I was a bit too lost
I never knew how hard it would cost
Guess I wasn't so right
Never meant to pick up a fight

I may say that I don't care
You may feel a rising flare
But, haven't you seen my heart bare?
A moment for me,can't you spare?

A sweet dream or a perfect nightmare
Either way,for you I do care
Wanna sail through the sea
To meet you
In a place as perfect as it can be

We'll sing, we'll dance
As if in a trance
Let music of breeze fill through your ear
Let me put a flower on your hair

A beggar's account

Sober and thirsty
With flaccid muscles,weary looks
His tattered clothes resemble a crook
Distinct smelly,disheveled hair
Still he ain't drasty

With heavy steps
Begs for alms at each doorstep
It ain't that he's just refused
Made fun of,rather abused
With dreary looks,he still stands amused

Yet
He can't fight back
Self-respect,he's supposed to lack
Can't hum with the wind
To the warmth of the sunshine,he's blind

With so hard-earned bread
For him,every cent counts
At times,a tear or two he does shed
Thinking of those numerous accounts
Of miseries untold,dreams unfulfilled

Realizes the futility of his existence
A picture of human persistence
With an empty bowl as thy sole comrade
His journey seems to have just begun
With each rising sun

Unexpected Bliss

Lost in thoughts,I swirled
Caught a glimpse of the beauty unfurled

Her wet hair let loose
Blue eyes,a tint of haze did seduce
Her soft skin glistened
To her husky voice,every ear listened
Those dimpled cheeks,on it a radiant smile
My heart craved for her guile style

Ah! her slender waist as she swayed!
Her beauty,her glow seems never to fade
Red lips,so inviting,truly kissable
Like an angel,she's adorable
Her clothes,her beauty betrayed
A girl of class,not a jade.

On her,so many eyes feasted
Maybe with sultry looks,even she baited

T'was not what I expected
Not that I never intended
The way she pulled me aside,drew in close
With her eyes closed,seemed as if in pose !
With lips touching,implanted a wet kiss
All I could say t'was eternal bliss
Felt her warm breath on my neck
For onlookers,we didn't care a heck !

Tide of emotions rose and fell
As she continues to excite me by her spell
T'was a missing spark,I knew,I felt !

MUR XOPUNAR PREYOXI

Well... its an Assamese composition by me... wrote it few days ago...no assamese text editor available here,.so i m writing in english only...

komal puwati rod jen
ussakhita tumar mukhmandal
golapor paahi hen
mrikhan tumar gaaldukhoni
uthot laajere roi
tomar misikiya hahiti
sau nesaukoi kerahikoi
tomar mrignayani sawani
kou nokoukoi tomar meetha kothati
xuno ki nuxono oi
riniki riniki bhahi oha
tur geetor koliti
usupi nisuki goi
tur xontekiya thehti
haaho ne kaandokoi
tur solsoliya sokuti
ulau nulau koi
tur monmoha thogti
nebhabo bulio bhabi tur kotha
herale tur tuponi
jouwanor sagarot rupar dhou tuli
karhili kio mur monti
manabi nohoi devi toi premor
ruaphi,rangdhali toi ronpoxili
mor sopunar preyaxi.

Dreamt of being loved

A beautiful dream
May be a wonderful desire
The long suppressed fire
For whom I admire


Staying up late
Just to see her sleepy state
Dreams about a date
With the one I closely relate
Her voice,songs she sang
The times I was just hang
The sound of her laughter
Echoes inside me ever after.

Talks and chats preluded
Feelings that had long eluded
Dreams shared
Hearts bared
Maybe sparks of love flared !
Strength of our trust
Made sure twas not lust

She's wise,patient and freak
Still a smart and sexy chic
Loves herself,still ain't meek
Money ain't her concern
Nor her pretty face did ever concern
Knows really what she want
Angel as ever
Her qualities,she did never flaunt

Oh! I love the way she treats
Makes me count my heart beats
We talk,we listen
Speaking of memories,eyes glisten
Even if we sit quiet
Being with her just gives me delight
Love to hold her firmly when she's low
Make her smile,bring back her glow

Love's delicate,soft as ice
For it,ready to pay any price
Nurture it,let it bloom
Can't ever see her gloom
And when I am old,my hairs gray
She be with me,I pray
Maybe would wonder how long I lived
Never grew old, how I thrived!

Love is beautiful,a glorious gleam
And that's how end my ashed dream !

Useless Worldwide

Senseless pride

Tortured bride

Tempers belied

Broken ride

Worthless guide

Always tried

Never lied

Furious red-eyed

Rules aside

Heads on collide

Bheja fried

Backward slide

In hell,I reside

Heavens cried

Guilts' chide

Being polite

Let you decide

In you I confide

Proposal denied

THE REBEL SPIRIT

There he was
As common he may seem
With intentions ain't so common
He dare to dream
Maybe his means were low
High ambitions did he sow

Pledged to rebellion
Spurting the battalion
The indomitable spirit of his
Seemed like a divine bliss
His eyes-fury as red
Spoke of his passion
To crush those who fled
And for the poor,held compassion.

Scores of processions
Taught him few lessons
Of terror and oppressions
Tried hard to stir the sleeping masses
And at last
People woke to their senses
Acted upon their grievances
Protests,marches,barged in
The flame of revolution still lurchin'

Since then,years have slipped by
Into the history,none eyes did pry
Rose the ranks,only the sly
In the race,others just fell by.

Now,
His roof dazzle with stars
For security,he got no iron-caged bars
For few
In the courtyard,flowers bloom,riches boom
For him,it still seem doom.

Broke and lost
Unable to take further jolts,
Relatives gave in
Looted of their last saving
Broken trust,friendship and promises
Haunt him like nemeses
Testimony of his golden dreams
Echoes the hollow beams.

Hills cry,plains bleed
Who planted the seed
Of race,caste and creed?
Of high and lower breed?
Notions of harmony,peace and love
Poisoned by crimes,thy greed.

With deception your forte
Plans of development you did abort
Concealing thy self,shrewd and sly
Now,to your powers,others comply
With power in your hands
And money in your banks,
The image that you paint
Letting others believe you're a perfect saint.

Still the rebel wanders
Maybe in search of wonders
To wipe out the corrupt and vain
Still undettered,despite pains
Leads groups of strong-willed brains!

The Devil.....

It's just not fair the way life is
Piling sorrows upon my wings
What did I do to earn this fate?
Even if I m hungry
Not a thing on my plate.

Even as I try giving everything
I always end up having nothing
Her tongue seems faster den a sword
She acts as if she s d lord
Eager as always to drag me down
Can't figure out how did i drown.

Did I really drown??
Else. Y she's seeming frown??
Do i really look like a clown??
Seems utensils are gonna crash
By the one
Whom i thought was a 'beautiful lass'!

Damned I am
Would anyone really belive
I was the sexy sam
I seemd a prized catch
For d lasses in my batch
Lil did i know...
Marraiage is my hell n death my doom
Can peace do ever last
Or should I run to my friends fast??

Damnation to u I say
Hell with the righteous in their day
Take me with my sorrows, my lad
Let me rot till i smell bad.

I cant even show her fear
Get melted by her tears
For a second I smile
But next second i gottta run a mile
To shop...
Or to say make me rob
Whenever we have a fest
I feel releived of her taste
Which makes me try my best
To eat that or get choked in my chest.

Would dying serve the end I seek?
Why do I always have to be so meek?
Would tears flow if i left this place?
Would it be for me?
Or for the lost tears dat i again may need?




Alas I'm driven to death's door
To find peace I'm looking for
Adieu my darling far and wide
I know u wont shed a tear, my bride
I m happy and so at peace
Leave me in my blissful sleep


For a moment was I happy
it seem
Gotta be awake or she'll scream
Oh! she haunts even in my dream
May be dats d reason
Why i m still so lean!

A Lucky Love

Seems like a day
Lazily bored I lay
Lost in the thought
Of someone I sought.

So lost was I
Shattered,broken down
Struggling to fly high
Until
You just passed by.

Just a glimpse of you
Craves everyone in the queue
Seems like everyone has set eyes on you
Never know, how much I love you.

Wherever you go
Admirers seem to follow
Just a second without you
I seem just so hollow.

Just you in sight
Makes me lose my mind
The smile on your face
Drives me crazy,with delight.
The way you speak
The way you feel
Makes me realize
I just got the best ever deal.
Everything about you is so benign
You are just too angelic,so divine.

I know I am crazy
But just for you
I can be lazy
But never for you.
I can be the joker
Play cards,or even poker
Be the clown
Just for you my dear
So that you may never frown.
Can't believe how lucky I got
To have you
When there were still a lot to be fought.

You are my everything
Except you,I don't need a being
Just wanna be with you
Can't ever forget you
Coz
Simply I love you.

Wake me up when semester ends

Exams have come and passed
The bindaas can never last,
Wake me up when semester ends.

Like the geeks, we never pass
The time seems to fly so fast
Wake me up when semester ends!

Why are the quizzes done??
Why rob us of all the fun?
Stresses us,makes us tense
So much for making us insane!!

As we try mugging course,
To distant dreams, our mind soars!
Forget we all what we learn
Yo! all the gaming has just begun
Wake me up when semester ends..!!

.
Sometimes I feel so frust.
Dreams seem to crumble to crust...
Moments ago I felt elated...
Now I seem sedated..

Can't remember
Zeta, theta, delta,eta
Just thinking of my senorita
Force,moments,torques,torsion
Creates so much of a distortion
The thick and slender beams
Just blow apart my dashing dreams.

Viscous,vorticle,laminar,fluid
Dream of the languid chick on equid
Pencil,linewidth,hatching,drafter
Sight of bald prof prompts laughter
Annealing,voids,density,phase
Better watch IPL,it got a craze
Society,caste,labour,cheap
Enough to lull you into sleep..
Circuit,motor,A.C,phase
Smoke,drink,looks for chicks to chase...

The eluding love

As I close my eyes,
My dreams come alive
The love I chased so far
Sits curled up so near.

The way she fills my senses
Tears apart my defences
Just the thought of her in sight
Wakes me up through the night.

It's the way she smiles
Makes me wonder if she ever cries
Her eyes so deep and clear
Seems to melt someone so dear

The way she blush,she shy
As she passes by
Surmises her sweet innocence
Makes everyone 'wish she was mine'
Every piece of her is so right
Even in the darkness,she's my light.

I often wonder why
Someone as flawed as I
Gets a chance to love thy.
As the time flies by
I just wish she remains close-by.

THE HEARTBROKEN

The smile on your face
Seems a big disgrace,
The look of your eyes
Reminds me your lies.
Your sweet promises
Haunt me like nemesis
The time spent together
Loathes me forever.
Yesterday seemed so fair,
With you so near
Tomorrow seemed a distant dream
Love sparked a blooming gleam.
So elated was I
Finally having a purpose to die
Little could I know
Such miseries were to follow.
Never could I decipher
Why you left me in tears
Can't still understand
Why couldn't I make you mine?

Blown Away

Forever wrapped in a lil' world
Among your cosy arms
Every wish fulfilled
Every pleasure made mine.
Away from the maddening crowd
From its coldness and bruises.

Now
A solitary soldier
Wandering in the desert
Writhing in the pain
Hunger and thirst unfulfilled
None to send by my side

Sitting beside a dune
The lil' particles that lie within
Slowly heaping over the time
Seems like a fine castle !!
Lo! here comes the stormy wind
Tearing away the castle
Carried away somewhere
I never know
Some still lay scattered
Among the ruins
Hoping for the better
Nostalgia engulfs me
I do wish to change
Await I for the angel
To make me feel better.